"Sober"

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up!!

Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I'm still sober

Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

:: nad & afo weds !! ^^

my dream wedding~

"My dream wedding"

''Once upon a time a bright eyed little girl dreamt of a fairytale wedding with her handsome prince. She would put white sheets around her head as if it were a veil and hum the words to "Hear comes the bride". She grew older, but never stopped believing in the fairytale. Here is her story.''''

hurm, apa yang aKu impiKan adaLah chenta yang beraKhir dengan perkahwinan buat seLamanya. siyesLy, chenta yang betol2 chenta sememangnya sUKar untuk di chari seKarang nie..chenta kerana nafsu? mungKin, banyak dan bersepah..mana2 pown boleh di dapati..petik jari je 'one night stand' everywhere guys..order, bayar dan u get the services! easy aite..?

taPi, aKu tak naK macam tu, sesipa pown tak naK ..setiap wanita mengimpikan perkahwinan yang sempurna,meriah bersama restu keluarga, kawan2 di sisi..merasa utk jd raja sehari, di layan seperti raja dan permaisuri, berseri di hari persandingan sendiri, siapa yang tak mahu merasai? begitu juga lah aKu...tapi, persOaLannya, wujudKah chenta itu? mungKin..yang sudah berKahwin sememangnya itulah chenta sejati dan jodoh dari Allah swt untuknya..bertuah bagi mereka yang benar2 memilih calon yang tepat dalam melayari kehidupan berumahtangga..macam itulah yang aKu inginKan..di chentai dan menchentai. perkahwinan adalah satu tanggungjawab yang besar untuk di pikul, perlu bersama2 memahami antara satu sama lain dan chenta yang sempurna adalah chenta yang memerlukan pengorbanan...

chenta yang tak semestinya memiliki sekiranya dia bukan untuk kita..doakan la kebahagiaannya. chenta bukan untuk merasai apa yang ada di jasadnya tapi chenta adalah untuk merasai apa yang ada di jiwa, di hatinya bukan hanya jasadnya cuma..chenta yang di paksa seperti tiada perasaaan di dalamnya tidak bermakna apa2..

apa yang aKu mahuKan chenta yang jodohnya dtg dari Allah SWT, bukan syaitan mahupun jin yang menyesatkan..chenta adam dan hawa yang suci dan abadi, chenta yang direstui keluarga, chenta yang kekaL hingga ke syurga..insyaallah~

5 reasons why LOVE sUcks!~

1st > the expression most commonly used with love is “falling in love.” There is no better word to describe it. It is indeed “falling” in love, and that’s what sucks about it. You are tricked into it like an addictive gambling game, and then you are tripped, and you fall, and you keep falling in a seemingly endless spiral. And, like everything that falls, you eventually hit a bottom, and it will be hard and painful. Falling in love only gives you an incurable ache when you reach the end.

2nd > love is blind. You will walk into love without seeing it, and you will follow love without noticing it. It will dictate your life, and you will not know it until the blindfold is gone, and you love no more. Only then will you realize what kind of sheep you had been while under the spell of love.

3rd > love hurts. When you fall in love, there are many times when your feelings are not returned, resulting in a painful void in your heart. The pain will seem unbearable, and was not worth the heady feeling you got before your love was not returned. After realizing the truth behind the disadvantages of love, and after experiencing the heartbreak for yourself, will you only realize how meaningless and futile your love was. Your love will only cut you open in the end.

4th >“All is fair in love and war.” This commonly used saying is very true, and will ony result in your downfall. Love often strikes many people at once, and for the same thing or person. Competition is what war is about, and love is just the same. You will compete with others to show your affection, and prove your love is most worthy. But, so will everyone else. When competition reaches your friends and family, and you focus only on the art of competition for love, you begin to lose the things you held dear before love struck you. Chances are, you will lose the competition to someone else, and you will be left with nothing, having sacrificed everything to try and win.

5th >The most important reason that love sucks, and is not worth your time: your love is no more important than someone else’s. Unless you are some sort of Casanova or Eros, the Greek god of Love and Passion, your love is only important as long as someone believes it is. To keep someone in need of your love, it takes a lifetime of adoration and spontaneity, or else they will look to someone else for the same love and adoration. In the end, love can only hurt you.

mUsic in me~

'Music is forever; music should grow and mature with you, following you right on up until you die.'
– cyera cullen

thoughts philosophy of L.I.F.E~

Life… is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you’re stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there’s nothing else to eat while you’re watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it’s gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper.
~ Cyera Cullen